raped mind 3

 The fear of being mugged along with being molested violated arouses me now because of having a raped mind.  I both dread and yearn to be threatened bullied harassed insulted humiliated degraded by lowlife rough dark skinned interracial thugs.

Porn videos or pics of high profile pretty white decent ladies being dominated by poor lowlife niggers being forced to put weighted nipple rings and clit rings now arouses me because it will stretch their nipples and clits long until they sag the breasts clit and labia.  Seeing them caused me to want to masturbate being a victim of those interracial lowlifes although all those degrading things has not yet happened to me.

When I was physically molested violated my mind was being raped in the process.  One incident I was watching a cheap movie alone.  The place stank with the dried up smell of jizz.  (I was still innocent then otherwise I would have immediately if u knew) I did not want to waste the cost of the movie ticket so I decided to finish the movie.

Then later, an interracial poor tramp looking guy sat beside me even though there were many other seats available.  I didn't think much of it at first.  I still did not know then that those cheap theaters were a den for sexual predators! And then I felt his hand rubbing my crotch!  There was a tingling sensation but I felt very afraid then.  I wanted to flee but was too afraid to do or say something.  My mind was being raped at the start from fear thinking what would happen to me.  I grew very nervous.  Finally I got the strength to ask him if he has molested violated many women already.  He said yes.  I asked him a,lot of things he did to his prey.  Every time he confirmed and said yes my mind was getting raped unto another level! Because each time he confirmed affirmed my queries I was gradually getting aroused!

That is the entirely new other higher level that my mind was getting raped.  Aside from the fear of being molested violated raped, I was also getting aroused!  My arousal was the result of hearing answers from my queries like what I do nowadays asking lowlife rough nigger thugs how they bully harass pretty white decent ladies and each demeaning narrative answer causes me to pinch my genitals and masturbate over it.

What happened to me in the cheap filthy moviehouse was like an introduction to rape porn in the form of storytelling.  Like how I read porn stories of rape humiliation degradation of decent pretty white ladies being defiled!  It won't be long before I myself would be defiled further!  If I don't get away immediately i would become a willing victim because of my arousal!  I have masturbated since I was young so it would be an early disaster for my purity and innocence (of what is still left) that the filthy (maybe homeless?) unkempt interracial sexual predator would masturbate me himself!  (that is what i understood he intended to do, having no idea yet the extent that could happen to me in that cheap filthy dried up cum stinking moviehouse)  

Even if I am so aroused by his answers and molestations, I still wanted to preserve my dignity, save myself to who I want to marry.  My mind was raped because it was torn between saving my honor or be carried away to lust the predator was inducing in me!  Eventually I decided to preserve myself.  But how could I escape his clutches at that moment?

I will email anyone to what happened next if i was successful in finding a way of escaping or not, if anyone can make me a dummy fb account or email me true stories or videos of rough lowlife nigger thugs bullying harassing pretty white decent ladies into submission humiliation reluctant orgasms turning them into their personal whores bitches sluts.  If you are also a poor nigger thug i would be additionally aroused if aside from the true stories or videos, you would trash talk me also scaring me again!

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